Update

Okay, so I have decided to open up this blog to anyone. I must warn that it is my page to release any anger, frustration or heartache that I might endeavor during my struggles with infertility. This blog is also a place for me to list and expound upon all the blessings and wonderful moments of hope and encouragement that I experience as I learn from infertility.

I would like for all of my friends who have anything to say to say it. There will be times when I need to hear that everything is okay and that you are there for me. There will be times when I need for you to listen and be patient. There will be times when I need a hug and some chocolate.

The purpose of me opening up this blog (it has been private for some time) is so that I can write what I feel, have it read and inform those around me of where I am in my life. I feel that for so long I have distanced myself from all of my friends who have children because I have felt like a bit of an outsider, but I want this blog to serve as a link, an informer of why I act the way I do sometimes in hopes that it can bring us closer together.

Infertility is hard. It is hard to watch others receive what I have tried so hard to get, but have only been found wanting even more. I want my friends to know how much I love them. I want them to know that I have appreciated the baby shower invites and am sorry that I have not been able to attend all of them (those are one of the hardest places for me to be.) However, I am not asking for pity. I am asking for patience and understanding as I try to learn and grow through this trial. I feel I have come far already, but there is still room to grow. I feel that part of that growth is opening up about all of this instead of keeping it bottled up inside. If you choose to keep reading my posts, please don't be offended or upset if I write something personal, I need your support.

I think I have said everything I wasn't planning on saying, so I should probably end this post here. Thank you for reading and for taking the time to help me learn. I hope I can teach you something, too.

Love,

Danielle