New Steps

So, I went to the doctor this last week to talk about endometriosis. I went in to the appointment expecting to have to fight for lapriscopy (see endometriosis post) and the doctor (after a little bit of convincing) said that she would be totally willing to do the lapriscopy. She said, however, there were other ways of dealing with the pain of endometriosis (birth control...kinda defeats the purpose) and I informed her that we had actually been trying to conceive for over three years. She asked, "Well, do you want to control the pain by lapriscopy? You may or may not have it. Or would you like to pursue the route of getting pregnant?"

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Now, I have to preface this, because I went into this appointment with a prayer in my heart that whatever needed to happen-would happen. I was expecting to come out of the appointment with a scheduled surgery.

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I asked what option I had, and she offered to put me on Clomid. Clomid is a fertility drug that stimulates and increases the potency of ovulation. She said that there is no reason Clinton and I have not conceived yet and that if I would like to go a less invasive route first, she would put me on Clomid. I'm still not sure why, but I decided to go with the Clomid option. I don't really have any problems with my ovulation, however my cycle is long (usually about 42 days).

When you've dealt with infertility for a long time you begin to become calloused to anything actually working, so I'm not saying that I am going to get pregnant off this, however, I do feel that this is the step that Heavenly Father would have us take at this time. Perhaps it is just one more thing that I can cross of my list of "have-dones". Perhaps I just need to see that I really have done everything that I need to do before I do something more invasive like lapriscopy. Perhaps this will be the answer we've been waiting for for so long.

So, this is where we are. Now is the time of my life that I become a regular at the doctor's office and get over my anxiety with needles...because there will be lots in my future!

I feel SO BLESSED though. I have been in limbo for so long, not being able to afford to do any of this (Yeah student loans and living in my parents' basement!) and now I finally can. I feel like I am moving forward. I feel like changes are happening and looking back seems to be so short. Again, I have no idea where this will lead, if anywhere, but I know that we have received direction from the Lord and that He will bless us in whatever way is right.